Confession: I always felt like blogging was sort of weird. I mean, it was fine that other people did it, but it wasn’t for me. Just the word “blog”… Weird.
But at the same time, I wanted to write.
When I was younger, I would spend days of summer break writing songs and poems and three-page stories based in “Laura Ingalls’ times.” And every time Mother’s and Father’s day or Christmas came around, I’d write gifts to my parents.
They loved it, and I loved it.
I loved putting my words down on a page, finding creative ways to show them how much they meant to me.
Back then, it felt like writing came so easily.
As I’ve recently started making writing a normal part of my day in order to launch this blog, I’m finding that it doesn’t come so easily anymore.
I write something, re-read it, and know there is absolutely no way anyone else will be reading the mess on my screen. (Also, I’m a major perfectionist, so that doesn’t help too much:)
Yet despite these personal issues going on … I so badly want to write words that inspire.
So here I am, becoming a blogger (despite my former views on the whole idea) and trying to learn how to make writing feel natural again.
If I had no real reason for doing this, I’d probably have given up by now. But I have three things that keep me from giving up so easily.
1. It’s me.
The other day, my parents told me that I started questioning my faith through deep theological questions by the age of 7.
I have no memory of doing this, but obviously I cared. Even with my young mind, I so badly wanted to understand what Christianity was all about.
Really, it’s just who I am.
And eventually, I switched from not only wanting to learn (trust me, I’m not done there either) but wanting to teach others.
I’m passionate about Jesus, and I’m passionate about inspiring people to grow in (or begin!) their relationship with him. I can’t think of anything exciting to do with my future—except writing and speaking and leading others in following Christ.
I have no idea what my future will look like, but this blog is sort of like a stepping-stone into what I want to do.
2. My “why.”
Right now, I see the need for authentic faith in the Christian community.
Christians are labeled as the most judgmental and hypocritical people out there, when in reality we should be the opposite.
I had a pastor once say that he loves following Christ with all his heart, but there are days when he just doesn’t like the Christian community.
I couldn’t believe how spot-on that statement was.
I’ve found that sometimes it’s easier to hang out with my non-believing friends than it is to be with Christians who act like they could care less about Jesus.
Now, on the other hand, I have some absolutely amazing (and authentic) Christian friends and mentors. Talking with them, being around them, honestly just knowing they exist is refreshing.
The world needs more of these people.
I wish I could say I’ve got it all figured out—I can’t (bummer). But I’m writing anyways. And each time God teaches me more of what it means to pursue an authentic relationship with him, I’m going to write.
I hope something that he says through me will inspire you, too:)
3. Jesus said so.
True story…I’ve felt God calling me to do something with my writing for a while now, but I’ve been too busy making excuses that it just hasn’t happened.
I guess I was kind of fighting with God saying things like…
“Please no! People will send me hate mail and I can’t deal with that.”
“I have no time for this!” (As I sit in my backyard reading the latest Francine Rivers novel.)
“I’m too young and what do I really have to say?”
But God won our little argument, and here I am.
You can’t really say no to Jesus. He ends up bugging you until you say yes (it always works out better his way anyways).
So there you go!
That’s why I’m here. Talking about Jesus is a part of who I am, there’s a problem that needs to be solved, and, well, Jesus said so.
I’m going to share this verse with you, before I go. It ties into everything I said and inspires me to actually do something worthwhile during my teenage years.
“Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity. Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you.” ~ 1 Timothy 4:12,14
No matter if you are young. It’s never too early to live by example and use the gifts He has given you. Now is as good a time as any.